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Im wen,everything seems okay.it could be worse.my worries and concerns are for my daughter sam.she is in colledge for pharmacy.we have no more funds,she used all her federal grants and has to apply for private loans.i am on ssi and a single mother.she has 4 more years and she is not aloud to work while going to pharm.she is so determined and i feel awful that i cant even cosign because i have no credit.i send her 20.sometimes 40 dollars. pay some of her rent and her stepdad helps with that.but its everything else we dont have, to help her food gas medical.im speechless and we got to find a way to get her through this quarter then we can worry about the next four years.

lyme is better,feeling good,now if i just can find a home and not have to rent anymore,one time in my life just to have a garden maybe some chickens and a nice fireplace to sit in front of and read.but no credit,

Besides my lyme disease.there are things i would love to have or do that i probably will never get to see or do.not just being sick.but having a dream trip to ireland.anyone ever been there?i promised myself id get my front teeth fixed first.but its the teeth the trip or the 2 acres of land to grow  midiciaal herbs .flowers on,but most of all have my dog back.id be even willing to rent somebodys land. or work the land to live there.anybody have any ideas? my income is 600 a month.how can i save a dollar to do anything? please reply.my 3 goals and plans dont look so close anymore.besides the fact that im 48.

judyann,i ask myself this everyday.why do good people have such sytuggles.but you are beatiful and seem healthy,dont let these bumps get in your way.you stay strong,good things will happen.do you have your health?.just remember if you want to talk there are people here who want to listen.i know i do.so for yourself your kids ...that is enough to want to keep going.they love you.they need you ......you will do better i know you will.just dont ever give up.ever.sincerly wenny,,,hugs and kisses xoxo

Hello friends call me wenny,I am 47 yrs old,and have 4 children,I have been sick since july 2006 with chronic lyme disease.I have been on many meds.I can not seem to get a grip on this,i am in bed most days i see double vision lots of times want to sleep most of the time.used to be a woman who had a life i use to be a caregiving person whom was happy full of energy and looked forward to the future.it seems that now i am on disability,sad angry tired sick,and i am losing my will to future goals and plans.I seem to be struggling with everything,i cant go to most appointments because i have to depend on rides from friends,or im too sick to go.my children seem to be angry that im sick.and i dont blame them.  try to look happy.but my immmune system is down,and it shows on my face and body.my income is very low so i can not afford renting anymore. seems  i dont know what to do.all i dream about having my health back.i dont know if that will happen anytime soon. my goal was a little cabin in the woods with a garden.a place big enough for my grandbabies to run,my dog beable to play outside.to be able to have alittle stress of me once in awhile.i had to give my dog who was my best friend away this week because i can not keep her where i live.and can not put a kennel up outside because theres no place to put one and im too sick to walk her.it hurt me to give her away.ive been crying way too much and stressed all the time.i feel very alone and want my friend back.i love my kids more than anything.but i think they are drained from watching me fall apart all the time.my daughter lives in vermont has 2 jobs just to put herself through school and pay her rent,i cant even help her.she calls sometimes crying because shes so tired and wants to give up and some how shes keeps going.i love flowers and growing medicinal herbs ,but no place to grow them,even though im not well.i love thinking about a field of lavender.making lotions and salves and canning fruits and veggies.i think im a country girl stuck in the city.

Hello friends call me wenny,I am 47 yrs old,and have 4 children,I have been sick since july 2006 with chronic lyme disease.I have been on many meds.I can not seem to get a grip on this,i am in bed most days i see double vision lots of times.i use to be a caregiving person whom was happy full of energy and looked forward to the future.it seems that now i am on disability,sad angry tired sick,and i am losing my will to future goals and plans.I seem to be struggling with everything,i cant go to most appointments because i have to depend on rides from friends,or im too sick to go.my children seem to be angry that im sick.and i dont blame them.i am single and try to look happy.but my immmune system is down.and i can not get all the herbs to go with the meds because there so expensive.my income is very low so i can not afford renting anymore.housing seems to be a 5 year wait,so i dont know what to do.all i want is my health.a little cabin in the woods with a garden.im tired and sick and sicred.i had to give my dog who was my best friend away this week because i can not keep her where i live.and can not put a kennel up outside because theres no place to put one and im too sick to walk her.im hurt and crying all the time.feel very alone and want my friend back.i love my kids more than anything.but i think they are drained from watching me fall apart all the time.my daughter lives in vermont has 2 jobs just to put herself through school and pay her rent,i cant even help her.she calls sometimes crying because shes so tired and wants to give up and some how shes keeps going.